Pretty intense week. I hurt Mom’s feelings twice in one day. Heck, in one hour! It felt awful, yet it was probably worse for her. We hung in there together until the next moment came. Having a little work done in the house threw her… and me. But we got through it. When I asked for the smallest of help, I was told they “just couldn’t do it.” And I was gently redirected by my God to the foundation of reality: This is my assignment.
“Spirituality is a relationship with reality.”
Living Clean – The Journey Continues (Narcotics Anonymous)
Accepting what I could do, and could not do and what I was being asked to do… man, it’s a lot. Self-acceptance comes through God dependence. That’s for me. They way I see it. When I ask my Higher Power for willingness, it is provided… always. My sponsor tells me to “pray for the willingness to become willing to be willing.” She’s a wise one! :-)
Willingness is a requirement for living spiritually. The mind is the battlefield. Always.
– I’ve fallen short this week;
– I’ve showed up daily this week;
– I’ve admitted to myself, my Higher Power and another human being this week;
– I’ve asked this week and
– I’ve allowed this week.
Faith & Roses 
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