February 7, 2024
7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. 9“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him…
Keep readingJanuary 30, 2024
Am I where I am supposed to be, or am I where I laid down? Can I accept what my life is here and now and choose to proceed?Is this complacency or contentment?Am I repeating useless behaviors?Am I being the friend I’d like to have?Am I avoiding people, places, or things? I am grateful for…
Keep readingJanuary 5, 2024
Twelve Step meetings. Literally folks from all walks of life; varying ages and races and genders. Differing lengths of clean time. Folks in “housing”, recovery houses; mental housing, whatever. On maintenance medication or 100% drug free. We all matter. We all are a part of the Recovery that happens in our meetings. The Fellowship provides…
Keep readingDecember 26-29, 2023
As I age and experience life without Mom, my mind shifts from defining “importance.” These days, I seek value. To value others and be valued in return. Allowing for transcendence from priority, expectations, dependency and institutionalized duty to a calm security and acceptance of love flowing between two Spirits. Something not needing monitoring; testing, or…
Keep readingDecember 24, 2023
Of all the people… of all songs??!! Never did I choose this. My Higher Power came on my heart as I had thoughts of Mom. “Barry Manilow — There’s a piece of a song in my heart… what is that song??? It’s on me — pieces of lyrics running into pieces of melody!!” And there…
Keep readingDecember 19, 2023
And so it begins. I’m simply loving this. Sitting here in the quiet of the morning, daylight streaming through Mom’s stained glass in my kitchen window; ‘Nanda, my [never had a cat before in my entire life] new roommate zealously working at her scratching post. I shake my head marveling. Precious, tangible memories of my…
Keep readingDecember 7 – 16,2023
Random thought: Little girl boo-boos and a woman’s indignation. Yep. That’s me. I keep seeking a higher power and then I squeeze my eyes tight and hold my hands over ears. I choose to struggle. I revert to last ditch battle cries and my very own “rebel yell.” I seem to be trying to get…
Keep readingDecember 6, 2023
Courage: Bravery. Mettle. Resolution. Perseverance. Determination. Tenacity. Audacity. Resolution. Perseverance. One of the most courageous things I have ever done was learning to walk through the hours without seeing my children every single day. Way back when—30 years ago now?—man, that was a dark, dark time. I couldn’t see my hand in front of my…
Keep readingDecember 3, 2023
Short, sweet, and to the point are the markers of our “time.” Or should I say “bittersweet.” I’ve lived long enough to have witnessed many changes. Things that were once all around me… a part of everyday life, have come and gone. Yet, isn’t that true of every generation? Man’s evolution / evolving. Change is…
Keep readingDecember 1, 2023
It is my “NA Anniversary.” Thirty-one years. Thirty-one years ago I was living with a husband and our two children. I had run out of ways and means to continue to medicate myself. I had no idea of anything I felt inside. No idea of how to stop the drugs. I was scared and didn’t…
Keep readingTHESE DAYS – written by Jackson Browne
I’ve been out walkingI don’t do that much talking these daysThese daysThese days I seem to think a lotAbout the things that I forgot to doAnd all the times I had the chance toI’ve stopped my ramblingI don’t do too much gambling these daysThese daysThese days I seem to think aboutHow all the changes came…
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