Checking on Mom via the Ring cameras is heart-breaking. Yet, I had the fleeting remembrance last night of my therapist’s perspective: “This is her death. You cannot change it. You can only keep vigil with her.”
Mom is not in pain and she is in her home. Yet, I feel pulled in many directions most days. It’s an effort for me to concentrate. I am depending on my Higher Power to guide me and fill me with its Spirit. I feel so aimless at times, and scattered as all-get-out. I keep one foot in front of the other. I keep telling myself it’s not about feeling “perfect.” Whatever that is. I cannot multi-task as I once could. I want to slow things down. I want to slow me down.
“We must come to terms with our own resistance in order to make a commitment to the Program.”
“I needed tools to survive my own humanity.”
“Accepting our freedom is a massive act of spiritual courage.”
“Many of us are used to being driven by crisis or calamity. It can take practice to learn to be motivated by something other than pain.”
“We don’t need to blow up our lives to get a fresh start.”
Narcotics Anonymous – “It Works – How and Why,” “The Basic Text”
Faith & Roses 
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