Faith & Roses

There are gifts in adversity. Being further drawn into recognition and acceptance of my complete dependence on God, as I understand God to be. It is a gift of powerlessness to choose to come back to the source again, and again and again. It is a gift of adversity to have the freedom to choose what condition I am in when I come back… asking for strength, power, wisdom and courage. Humility, gratitude, acceptance and surrender. In what condition am I when I come before my Higher Power? Am I defeated and beaten with a threadbare heart and mind? Am I filled with joy (not happiness) borne of a keen awareness of God’s power, protection, plan, provision and purpose? Am I reveling in the closeness I can choose to experience with my God as Author and Finisher?

“If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.”
“God’s will becomes our own true will for ourselves.”
“Don’t leave before the miracle happens.”
“Recovery is an inside job.”
“Recovery is an active change in our ideas and attitudes.”
“More will be revealed.”
“Surrender is the key.”
“Just for Today.”
“By admitting our powerlessness, we gain a far greater power.”
Narcotics Anonymous

All roads led me to a Higher Power. The times when I grew weary and returned to existing on a material plane began to feel foreign to me. Uncomfortable, like a too-tight shoe. To exist within relationship with my God; my Higher Power has become my calling. I accept my temporary citizenship here as all travelers who are not home must accept.

amen [/äˈmen,āˈmen/] noun: an affirmation of truth, agreement or belief; derived from the Hebrew word meaning “firm” or “sure”.

I say “Amen” to life. “Amen” to my assignment with Mom. “Amen” to the uncertainty. “Amen” to the pain. And “Amen” to the constant work. Work that is my Joy.