Faith & Roses

caregiving

  • Gratitude – 3/2022

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    slowing down being of service cuzzin Donnie’s example tough times and their fruits small goals discipline and restraint perseverance through 2 days of intense service to Mom Mom’s life, strength, laughter and love

  • December 12, 2022 (Part I)

    Mom continues to decline. It’s possible the much need respite I was blessed with was also to strengthen me for the “next phase.” Shaking hands. Diminishing appetite. Increasing withdrawal into… self? A cocoon of isolation. Decreased ability to understand verbal cues… instruction. Worsening depression. Mom is growing more tired of her physical limits and pains.…

  • Gratitude – 1/2022

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    swinging my legs over the side of the bed and standing up a softening heart Mom’s 90th birthday! winter boots bullshitting and laughing with Mom good intentions attitude adjustments

  • August 11, 2022

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    A ‘short fuse’ with Mom this week. And admitting that seems so screwed up to me. What reason or excuse can there be to act out on someone who is helpless over their cognitive state? I was sharing a bit about it with Marjory today and she said: “Breaking news: you’re not perfect. And even…

  • July 15, 2022

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    Tameka and I took mom to Live! casino yesterday. We also had the bonus of meeting up with Roe G. We were out for a couple of hours. I gave the casino my money and mission was accomplished: Mom got out in the world. Tameka continues to settle in beyond all my hopes. My assignment…

  • June 24, 2022

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    I remain amazed and grateful at the consistency and power that writing brings into my Spirit. “Now” is okay. I am here “now.” We found an aid that Mom can tolerate. She’s quite good. She can engage Mom where Mom is now. I do recognize that I have never had to do any of this…

  • March 26-April 1, 2022

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    Pretty intense week. I hurt Mom’s feelings twice in one day. Heck, in one hour! It felt awful, yet it was probably worse for her. We hung in there together until the next moment came. Having a little work done in the house threw her… and me. But we got through it. When I asked…

  • February 21, 2022

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    Mom was kind of heavy on my yesterday. The feelings of “not doing enough” for her came on me. As we say nowadays “I’m her person.” And it sometimes feels like a heavy weight. Mom depends on me for almost everything these days. My Higher Power graciously gives me the strength I need to help…

  • January 13, 2022

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    “Just For Today… I will surrender to win.” Narcotics Anonymous Together with a Power greater than myself and skilled and knowledgeable legal guides, I move mom into the next phase of her life. 90 years old on Saturday. As Mom spends down her time here (and, hey, no drama please… we are all spending down…

  • December 23, 2021

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    I am sharing Christmas with Mom. I am so grateful to have Mom. No matter our human conditions changing, ebbing, flowing and deteriorating. Love remains love. My Higher Power has schooled me not to hold too tightly to the things of this world. Some folks are losing their minds, laser-focused on creating some physical magic…