Stories
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And so, Mom is dying. This is a very large sadness covering me. I’m somewhat afraid; afraid to be without her. Afraid to be sad and to grieve. I give the medicine as directed by the hospice nurse. I am trusting her knowledge and experience. I can list in my mind, or here on paper,…
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God Is Good. Start with the truth to get to and remain in the truth.It’s been difficult to see Mom fading away, yet bearing witness is a gift in many ways. Death is a part of this life. A doorway, a transition, leaving behind this time and space continuum. Mom is moving forward. For Mom,…
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A prayer: Higher Power, God as I understand God to be:May I be all that You have created me to be and may I live and serve and love like You. Lift me, God, above the battleground of my shortcomings and missed marks. Renew my mind. Give me eyes to see what you see; ears…
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Got a call yesterday morning from Barb, mom’s aid… Mom was on the floor when she got there. I checked the ring cameras and sure enough, Mom slipped off of her recliner and ended up spending a total of 12 hours on the hardwood floors, unable to get herself up. Dozing on and off. It…
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It’s good for me to go to Mom’s and stay a long time, and it’s also good to go and stay a couple of hours. Marjory is right in many ways. I’m doing what I’m doing for me. As Mom fails more and more, what I do becomes more and more for myself. Mom is…
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Yesterday a priest came to Mom’s. I wish I could remember his name! He is a native of Ukraine. Dear man. Kind, open, bright-eyed. Looked Mom and me right in our eyes. He travelled a far distance to see Mom and give her three Catholic sacraments:– Reconciliation– Communion– Anointing of the sickThe oil he had…
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I’m so very tired this morning. I could go lay down and fall right to sleep. It’s a beautiful morning… and it’s also almost the end of August. Remember: I cannot experience what has not happened yet. Today I will go to Mom’s and sit with her through to evening. We will watch one of…
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I have learned something to be true that I once did not believe. I learned that I can love someone with all my heart and yet not thrive in the relationship. I can love someone with all my heart and feel alone. I can love someone intensely and be willing to sacrifice my beliefs and…
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No matter what I can’t see; no matter what I’m not able to hear; no matter how unsure my steps; and no matter my choices, Higher Power will not fail. I may doubt; wonder why; feel despondent and unable to go on … as long as I continue to pray for willingness, all will be…
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Mom continues to journey home. My Higher Power continues to bless her with guided steps, protection, and freedom from pain. Sleeping and sleeping. She can finally rest and sleep like she never did in her stronger years. The caring I feel in my heart for her is real. And I know that because it is…
Faith & Roses 