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Checking on Mom via the Ring cameras is heart-breaking. Yet, I had the fleeting remembrance last night of my therapist’s perspective: “This is her death. You cannot change it. You can only keep vigil with her.” Mom is not in pain and she is in her home. Yet, I feel pulled in many directions most…
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Brief musing: Fantasy: living in the past’s first cousin. Another way to medicate my feelings. I filled in for Mom’s aid yesterday. I am always appreciative of what these aids do. It was “okay,” and I did what I needed to do. Mom is failing more. Sleeping a lot – quietly tapping out on and…
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Just For Today I am safe. I am sitting quietly in Tim and Casey-Lee’s house in Haiku on Maui. It has been raining all day. Comfortable temps and steady humidity. [My hair died days ago!] ;-) Time for tea…
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12:45 pm Pacific Time. Haiku, Maui. Whew! In the best of ways, I am finally getting the vacation vibe. Looking forward to seeing my son in law and spending time with him and continuing in this precious time with my daughter. My kids have proven to be some of my absolute best and brightest teachers.…
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Pretty intense week. I hurt Mom’s feelings twice in one day. Heck, in one hour! It felt awful, yet it was probably worse for her. We hung in there together until the next moment came. Having a little work done in the house threw her… and me. But we got through it. When I asked…
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Mom was kind of heavy on my yesterday. The feelings of “not doing enough” for her came on me. As we say nowadays “I’m her person.” And it sometimes feels like a heavy weight. Mom depends on me for almost everything these days. My Higher Power graciously gives me the strength I need to help…
Faith & Roses 