Faith & Roses

Living in Mom’s house. I never really wanted to. I still feel that way now. Some folks have mentioned the benefit of taking Mom’s house, and the benefit they offer is always financial. But I can’t imagine Mom’s house ever being anything other than her house. I cannot imagine Mom’s house looking any other way than it looks now.

I want to remain openminded, grateful, and humble — respecting Mom’s wishes, life, and memory. I am confident the coming days wil present many opportunities to be “smarter.” Wiser. Yet above all else, Higher Power, I want your will in my life. Ah…. a Higher Power’s will… And then…

• I will forget that this is what is best for me.
• I will resist seeking it out of habit.
• I will be distracted by the slightest external noises and movement.
• I will be distracted by the fear of the unknown.
• I will be distracted by my very humanity and it’s inherent seeking after instant gratification and attachment to my ego.
• Distracted by Ego: what I think I know, or fearful of what I think I don’t know.

The doors I have knocked on in handling Mom’s affairs have all opened smoothly. I am truly grateful to the God of my understanding and to Mom — for the things she put into place to make this so.